*aj* came over yest...had a little..tiff yest....she almost left my house halfway.. it was my fault...but..i guess..everythin's fine again...i hope....yea..gonna watch -passion of the christ- now..seeya.

|exCiTeD|

-jUmPin aRoUnD-



left her thoughts ♥ 8:39:00 PM

hafin free period again....slpt at 3 last nite..was tinkin bout sum stuff.....haf no idea wad's goin on,wad i'm gonna say or wad i'm gonna do...but well...*sCraTcHeS heaD*..arh...i'm speechless.....oh well..i've got nothin to say.......bye.

|sPeEcHLeSs.i'M nOt tInKiN oF AnItHin NoW|

_lOsT_



left her thoughts ♥ 11:54:00 AM

ok..i did one compo today.....err..onli...but its ok.haha....guess wad..we had a puppy in class today.....found it outside our classroom...hee..soo cute....wanted to cuddle it..but...the sight of the fleas on its body..crawlin in n out of its fur ..Grossed mi out completeli...spelled with a capital G...i dun wan fleas on mi..so i did not touch it..even when the temptation to do so was realli great..it was like runnin around the class the whole day..ran round the teachers...haha..so cute...den it came to my seat n rested below my chair...its soo cute..when it stares at u..n give u its puppy look....u'd juz melt on the spot...that was wad happened...when it..whined....all of us went.."AWWWwwwww"......haha..so cute......wel..the best part is....IT HAS A HOME!!!!....YEAHHHH!!!!...*sam khoo's* gonna bring it home...hee..it wont be a homeless puppy animore.........
-SAM KHOO SAVES THE DAY!!!-

|miSsIn U bAdLy eVeN ThOu i ToLd u I DiDnT|

-sAtIsFiEd n hApPy-



left her thoughts ♥ 10:05:00 PM

ok...in sch now..hafin free period...today..i've got 6 free periods plus 1 hour of break....(lunch n recess)..oh my..so fun..i'm so free...haaha..aniwae..*aj* came over yest....was slpin...coz i had a pretty bad headache..no mood,realli tired....i bathed...went to meet *kazaf* at my void deck..we all den went to J8 to watch The Eye 2..pretty ok la..i muz say.Not as scary as Ju-on-the final.....after tt....we went home..my parents went out to watch the Nancy Sit concert..so.they came home at bout 10.20..so mama told mi n *aj* to haf dinner first....cooked lunched fer my mama n myself yest..n i cooked dinner...*whEw*..tirin man.............


|hAiKaL SuCkZ|

|wAiTiN fEr tHe tIme WhEn i cAn sEe u AgAiN|

Do I Haf To Cry For You

Don't wanna close the door
Don't wanna give up on it
Don't wanna fight no more
We'll find a way around it
Where's the love we had
We can make it last

Chorus:
Tell me what I gotta be
Tell me what you want to do
'Cause I can't live my life
The way you want me to
You know I can't go on
Living like we do
Do I have to cry for you
Do I have to cry for you

So tell me what it's for
If there's no winner in it
Nobody's keeping score
Let's start from the beginning
Can we make it last
With the love we had

Chorus:
Tell me what I gotta be
Tell me what you want to do
I can't live my life
The way you want me to
You know you can't go on
Living like we do
Do I have to cry for you
Do I have to cry for you

Do I gotta stand in the cold dark night
'Till the morning light (yeah)
Do I have to say
I won't let you get away

Chorus:
What do I gotta be
Tell me what you want to do
'Cause I can't live my life
The way you want me to
You know I can't go on
Living like we do
Do I have to cry for you
Yeah

Yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah
Hold on

You know I can't go on
Living like we do
Do I have to cry for you
Do I have to cry for you





-bOrEd n StOnIn-








left her thoughts ♥ 10:59:00 AM

whOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaa............I AM BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDddd........been slackin the whole day..heeee...*aj* comin over again....maybe watchin movie later..muz ask mama....today's sure hot....bathed like 4 times already..n i'm still hot n sticky.....eeeeeeeee....i hate it.......


|hAiKaL sUCkS|



left her thoughts ♥ 3:20:00 PM

alrite..its in the mornin....so tired...feelin weird.....sumthin's wrong..i dunno...
nvm.....hmm...well...sch starts tomolo.need to finish my work...arh...let mi slack awhile la..haha..i wonder wads with my life..i mean..crook??...everyone's against it...isit tt bad??...i dunno...r/s..will it last?.its easy to say.."YES!!we'll last forever".....but.sumhow...i dun believe it...
i mean...along the way...things will happen.. couple breaks...i've heard so many.."we will be together forever"..n look wads the outcome...i dunno if i should believe tt a r/s wld last..i realli dunno...it'd be sad if..a r/s lasted fer like..3 ys or more..den suddenli,they're gone...its so sad....n its a waste of time...look at mine..yea...we've been together fer 5 months...gg to 6 months...yea..many things happened..i've cried many times...i even asked fer a time out if things dun get ani better coz it was distractin mi n affectin mi...but..ever since i told her my thots n how i felt...things became better...or rather...tts wad i see.and tts good..i feel happier now..I TINK...i juz feel..sumwhere in her life..now..its not realli right..she does sum stuff tt's not lawfulli right...i dunno wad else to say.juz hope she'll not get into trouble..*sIgHZ*

|tInKiN oF u nOw|

Perfect

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
Do you think i'm wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do?
'Cuz it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm all right
and you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing last for ever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
'Cuz you don't understand


-sLaCkIn n StOnIn-



left her thoughts ♥ 10:47:00 AM

ok.i've done the new skin.pretty proud of it.love the song.juz had accounts tuition...first lesson today..feelin so good..wasnt bored at all....was realli attentive...the teacher's nice...hee..arhh....y did i fail my last acc test...or wlse..i'd haf gotten A1......*sCrEaMZ*..cannot...muz get A1 fer accounts...*aj* comin over later....i guess....well..i'll b waitin fer her to come.....


|wAiTiN fOr u tO bE iN mY arMs AgaIn|

-sItTiN n StoNiN n tInKiN-



left her thoughts ♥ 4:34:00 PM

This Love-Maroon 5


I was so high I did not recognize
The fire burning in her eyes
The chaos that controlled my mind
Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane
Never to return again
But always in my heart

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I tried my best to feed her appetite
Keep her coming every night
So hard to keep her satisfied
Kept playing love like it was just a game
Pretending to feel the same
Then turn around and leave again

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I'll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything's alright
My pressure on your hips
Sinking my fingertips
Into every inch of you
Cause I know that's what you want me to do




left her thoughts ♥ 10:40:00 AM

went monks yest......had a little misunderstandin between the both of us..was pretty upset...so..din enjoy myself....i'm not angry with ani1.but i seemed pretty pissed yest..i dunno y...so i juz kept quiet..cried a little fer the last song...-you are not alone- by MJ..was dancin with *wendy*.....felt lost...n teared......not gg fer choir.dun plan to.heck.i hate choir aniwae..


You Are Not Alone..

Another day has gone
I’m still all alone
How could this be
You’re not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you’re far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we’re far apart
You’re always in my heart
But you are not alone

’lone, ’lone
Why, ’lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you’re far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we’re far apart
You’re always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I’ll come runnin’
And girl you know that I’ll be there
I’ll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you’re far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we’re far apart
You’re always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you’re far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we’re far apart
You’re always in my heart

For you are not alone...


-SaD n CoNfUSED-



left her thoughts ♥ 10:37:00 AM

realli tired today..i dunno wad to say...wad can i do if i see sum1 i care fer....doin wrong stuff..how can i juz sit here n do nothin??......i realli dunno....wo zhuo ren hen bu rong yi...i told her tt she changed...frm bad to worse.....i mean.....yea....i realli dunno.dun wanna say much.......maybe i shldnt haf said anithin....i'm not God...i control no one's life except my own life.....i realli dunno wad to do......how???????????????...haiz....seein her later.....hope thing's will be fine........



left her thoughts ♥ 11:00:00 AM

*baby* came over yest...hee.......so happy...........aniwae..supposed to teach mi s.s..in the end...we played...aniwae..i'm gonna make it a habit to dedicate a song to *baby* in my every entry...=)....
-I LOVE YOU BABY-.and so..this song's fer u..




Every Little Thing You Do


Hello, let me know if you hear me
Hello, If you want to be near
Let me know
And I'll never let you go

Hey love
When you ask what I feel I say love
When you ask how i know I say trust
And if that's not enough

Chorus:
It's every little thing you do
That makes me fall in love with you
There isn't a way that I can show you
Ever since I've come to know
It's every little thing you say
That makes me wanna feel this way
There's not a thing that I can point to
Cause it's every little thing you do

Don't ask why
Let's just feel what we feel
Cause sometimes, yeah
It's the secret that keeps it alive
But if you need a reason why

Chorus:
It's every little thing you do
That makes me fall in love with you
There isn't a way that I can show you
Ever since I've come to know
It's every little thing you say
That makes me wanna feel this way
There's not a thing that I can point to
Cause it's every little thing you do

Is it your smile
Or your laugh
Or your heart
Does it really matter why I love you?
Anywhere, there's a crowd
You stand out
Can't you see why they can't ignore you?
If you wanna know
Why I can't let go
Let me explain to you
That every little dream comes true
With every little thing you do

Chorus:
It's every little thing you do
That makes me fall I love with you
There isn't a way that I can show you
Ever since I've come to know you
It's every little thing you say
That makes me wanna feel this way
There isn't a thing that i can point to
Cause it's every little thing you do
It's every little thing you do
(It's everything, everything you do)
That makes me fall in love with you
(That makes me fall in love with you)
There isn't a way that I can show you
(Oh yeah)
Ever since I've come to know you
(Ever since I've known you)
It's every little thing you say
(It's everything, everything you say)
That makes me wanna feel this way
(That makes me feel this way)
There isn't a thing that I can point to
Cause it's every little thing you do
It's everything, everything you do
That makes me fall in love with you
It's everything, everything you say
That makes me feel this way


-cHeR LuVs Aj SoOOoOOo mUcH....*mUacKz*-



left her thoughts ♥ 11:59:00 AM

*baby*..this songs r fer u.....juz wanna tell u how much u mean to mi....i dun wan us to drift apart ok??....wan u to noe that i will hold u close to my heart always.....i love u dearli n i wish that u r by my side every min,every sec n every hour of my life....baby..u mean alot to me.....i love u....


What My Heart Wants To Say


You're Amazing, so amazing
Have I told you enough?
You're my angel, my guardian angel
God knows I, have been blessed with love.

But if i'll be gone tomorrow
Would you know how deep my love goes?
Have i ever told you, you're the one?

CHORUS
If the words don't come my way
I hope you still know, I hope it still shows.
If the words don't come my way,
I hope you still know what my heart wants to say

A love so tender ,i surrender to this
feeling so true
My affirmation, my inspiration
Darling i, have been blessed with you

If the words don't come my way
I hope you still know, I hope it still shows.
If the words don't come my way,
I hope you still know what my heart wants to say

But if i'll be gone tomorrow
Would you know how deep my love goes?
If i was gone forever would you know
how much i care?
That you make me feel like flying,
that i'm sailing on your ocean
That everytime you look at me you see it in my eyes

If the words don't come my way
I hope you still know, I hope it still shows.
If the words don't come my way i hope you still know,
i hope it still shows.
If the words dont come my way, i hope you still know
what my heart whats to say.
If the words dont come my way i hope you still know,
i hope it still shows.
If the words dont come my way i hope you still know,
i hope it still shows.
I hope you still know what my heart whats to say




Say It Isn't So

Skies are dark, it's time for rain
Final call, you board the train
Heading for tomorrow

I wave goodbye to yesterdays
Wipe the tears, you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow

How can I be smiling like before
When baby you don't love me anymore

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know, I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Tempt to find, at least we've tried
We're still alive with hope this time
As they closed the door behind you

We're so close and times are still
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
As I wish I'd never found you

How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be strong enough to carry on

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know, I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Miles and miles to go
Before I can sail, before I can nail my love for you to sleep
Oh darling oh
I get miles and miles to go
Before anyone will ever hear me laugh again

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know, I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so..

Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know, I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so
If you wanna know, I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so



Listen To My Heart


endlessly
everytime i look into your eyes
i see forever
i dont know why
but everytime we touch i feel alive
theres nothing like it
people say that love cant be that stron
and you might just believe them
let me show you
i will prove them wrong

listen to my heart beat for ya
telling you that i adore ya
if you wanna know how much i feel inside
listen to my heart come closer
let me wrap my arms around ya
theres nothing i can do i'm so in love with you
just listen to my heart

oh my love
you really need to know that you are in my
once in a lifetime
my oh my
thheres nothing gonna stop us coz we are
a once in a lifetime

people say that love cant be that strong
and you might just believe them
but we can show them
we can prove them wrong

i cant tell you what out future holds
but as long as we're in love
we're alive



Everything I Do, I Do It For You


Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
When you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

Look into your heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all - I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way

Oh - you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
Yeah, I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - Yeah I'd die for you
You know it's true
Everything I do - Ohhh, I do it for you






-cHeRyL lOvEs Aj VeRy mucH-





left her thoughts ♥ 11:22:00 AM

today..i feel a little better..in sch..can see all my friends...yest.....*aJ* went to work........yep...called mi at 12am..aniwae....i feel a little better..now..i can say..."BABY..............I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!"..ya...tomlo got test..die...

-MiSsin u LoAdS....-
-cHeR lUvS aJ-



left her thoughts ♥ 11:02:00 AM

hiaZ........after a day....i still feel so terrible...cant i get this dreaful feelin off mi???...i hate it...its gonna ruin my attitude...my feelins......please go away.i wanna be happy.i dun wanna look down....i wanna look up to *aj*..smile......tell her "I LOVE U"...run to her..give her a big hug....blah blah.but...recentli..i cant...i dunno y...when i'm with her..i juz haf this..sian feelin....feelin like shit...she says she's feelin it too......we're driftin apart......wad can i do??...wads this feelin all about??......i still love her.......but..i cant realli express it thru actions.....i hate all these...i dun wan us to break up....dun wanna loose her....so..i guess...if i'm feelin this....there's still hope......i do hope tt she still loves mi...as much as last time..i dunno.....i feel so dreadful..so down........please help........................


-DrEaDfUL FuCk uP lIfE-



left her thoughts ♥ 7:43:00 PM

feelin tired....yest..my mama had autograph session @ times for the book Life!eat...its a new book that has all the best eatin places in s'pore....went down with her... to support her.bought the book fer *rachel* & *merser*....den *aj* came..went to by the book too...aniwae...hung around town fer awhile....had to go to *rach* bdae party at *andrea* house...so..mi n *aj* went cini....met up with *hong da n kaixin*...saw *fox*..*mel*...*aaron*...ya......den..we went to take neo prints......after tt...*aj*.*hongda n kaixin* followed mi to *andrea* house......yep..n partied.....=)..ate lots.....still...i dun feel good..hiaz........hafin the same old dreadful feelin...wad to do???..i dunno..*sHrUGZ*


-DrEaDfUl fUckEd uP gUrl-




left her thoughts ♥ 1:14:00 PM

past few days...went sch fer chinese....feelin like shit....dunno y..i still feel the same way....but who cares??......*aj* came my house yest n thurs..to help mi with my art......well...i dunno wads wrong with mi....i realli dunno...i juz dun wanna do anithin...y??..i dunno wads wrong with mi...i juz feel so cold..i feel cold towards everyone.....i juz dun wanna show it......i juz wanna scream at every1 to get away from mi......i'm a monster.....a freeak....URGGGGGGGGGGggggg...wads with mi.......aniwae....went monks yest......danced the nite away.....danced with *wendy*.......*aj* was out most of the time...nvm.....dunno wads goin on out there....dun wanna noe...dun wanna care.......not in the mood.....who cares...shit always happens....after monks....went to my son's house to bathe...we talked.i felt like slpin...so..went home..n sleep...n i juz woke up..feel grumpy..maybe meetin *aj* later.......haiz......


-FuCkEd GuRl WiTh a FuCkEd Up AtTiTuDe-




left her thoughts ♥ 10:23:00 AM

wad a day.woke up..went sch with *han n grace*....den *han* went sch...*grace* n me went mac to haf brkfst.....very full......i feel so shittyfied..i dun wanna face anione...i dun wanna talk to anione........i hate myself....i hate the world...everythin is so wrong..wrong wrong wrong..........i dunno wad the hell is wrong even...i juz feel so wrong......i dun wanna do anithin..i wanna rott n die away..........CAN I JUZ DIEEEEe.......i dun wanna live.life is so meaningless.......it really is.......wad should i do??.........n fuck the shit..i've gotta pluck out my molar tomolo...i hate it...fuck this shit......I HATE EVERYTHIN!!!!!!!!

1)..i get pissed easily...dunno wad the fuck is wrong with mi...
2)..i've got that FUCKED up attitude........
3)..i juz hate everythin.......
4)..i juz wanna run away from everythin.....
5)..i dun wanna love no more........
6)..i cant give anithin up....i dun wan to..but my feelins tells mi to..
7)..i'm tired of lovin.....coz at the end..it'll hurt so much....
8)..i dun wanna hurt ani1.....i'm afraid i will...
9)..i'm tired of myself.....i dun wanna wake up n face the same person in the mirror..
10)..when i tink of wad's gonna happen...i'll go nuts....
11)..i dun wanna face reality.....
12)..i dun wanna carry on with life...

I JUZ WANNA FADE AWAY......................!!!

-FuCkeD uP gUrL-



left her thoughts ♥ 7:10:00 PM

well..woke up today.....went to sch...after hist class..met *han* n *timo*....yea............nothin la..watched movie.heck la....wadeva......not gonna say anithin.



left her thoughts ♥ 8:03:00 PM

heeee......at han han's hourse now...stayin over..arh....they're gonna study...argg...i feel like slpin now....hahah.timo came over too...meet him after sch..den we all went to eat...grace's stayin over too... I MISS BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-cHeR lUvZ Aj To ThE CoRE!!!!-



left her thoughts ♥ 10:36:00 PM

i dun understand..i realli dun..i'm sorry...........i was reminded of the past.....i'm tinkin of it now....y is it so bad??.WHY?????......i dun even noe the reason...i feel so cheated......i'm robbed of my pride....y?...why did u do this to mi??...i realli dunno why...I TRIED!!!!!..............i realli tried ok??....i tried to make things better....i realli wanted it to work out..............everythin is gone......i cant look back..AND I WONT LOOK BACK.......maybe its fer the better...i guess...tings happens fer a reason...but..why does it happen to mi????......WHY?????......i got FUCKIN HURT.........BLOODY BASTURD.........BASTURD BASTURD.....BASTURD!!!!!!!!!!!!.............I HATE GUYS!!!!!!!.......GET OUT OF MY FUCKIN WAY!!!!!!!!............ALL OF YOU...............FUCK YOURSELVES..........FUCK fUCK FUCk!!!..i'm not wishin to turn back time..I WILL NEVER TURN BACK TIME...IF I WLD..I WOULD TURN BACK TO THE TIME WHERE I WOULD NEVER HAF MET YOU BASTURD...YOU NOE WHO YOU ARE......WANNA TELL YOU..I HATE YOU....I'VE WASTD MY TIME...LUCKY I'M NOT WASTIN ANI MORE TIME...........but..i haf no fear now..i fear no guys...*baby* will protect mi...i hope she will...she will not let anithin happen to mi........now tt i tink of *baby*.......i feel better...she makes me happy.....she makes mi smile......she makes my day....she makes me forget bout the unhappiness tt i had.....she gave me a new meanin to life........she comfirmed my feelings....she makes mi feel so right....her hugs...her kisses.........the look in her eyes.......the way she holds my hand.......the way she rubs her fingers against mine....the way she hugs me thightli from the back....the way she holds mi in her arms..the way she talks to me..the way that she leads mi to........i feel so comforted..so safe.....she makes mi fall for her deeper n deeper each day....i realli want her to noe that......i will not hurt her.......that she realli means alot to me..........
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

IF there would be a time..when the time on earth will end..where will i go??...who will i go to????

when the time comes.....i would run to her.look fer her.....no matter wad..i hAF to BE WITH HER...i would hold her tite in my arms....i wont let her slip away from my arms..my embrace......i would let her noe that she's the one i wanna die with......the one who will make death seems easy...seems painless coz..with her beside mi......holdin me.....nothin would be a pain.....there wld not be any sufferin.....i will be at ease....i will not worry........i will look at her..n smile.....i will tell her........"i love you so much....its time...n i'm ready...with u beside me...i haf no regrets to leave"...............
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

baby.....i realli love you so much.i wanna see u everyday..i wanna hold you everyday..
i wanna hug u everyday...i wan u to smile at me everyday...tell mi that you are alrite.....i wanna tell you every min,every sec...with my every breath that I LOVE YOU....


-cHeR lUVs aJ tO bItS-



left her thoughts ♥ 8:56:00 PM

*han* came over today..*baby* too....she came with LALA!!!!!..YEAH......aniwae...she left like an hour ago..so sad... i miss her like crazy now...wan her to be by my side...aniwae........today's the 13.....7 more days to go.....den our 5th month....YEA!!!!...soo hAPPY!!!..first time i've gone so long with a gurl..but..i haf no regrets....coz i love her....BABY..I LOVE YOU!!!!!.*mUaCkZ*...hope to see u soon.......

-cHeR lUvS aJ-



left her thoughts ♥ 8:00:00 PM

went monks....with *baby*..*hong da* n *kaixin*...had a ok time time la..din realli enjoy myself as much as last wk..but i like the last dance thou...yea..saw..*pOh*,*clay*,*kris*,*cal n ann*..*kane n deb*.*sean n huis*...bblah blah.....den after monks...mi..*sean n huis*..*cal*..*devon*..*bj*...*kaixin n hong da*..*clay*..*amy* n *baby*..went to play cs.....den we left at bout 5 plus...i reached home..n fell alseep....woke up at 10...parents screamin their butts out to wake mi up..so tired..den was doin chinese.....fell asleep twice...n everytime,my dad wld come in....suay......hahaha....aniwae
I MISS BABY......maybe later goin to *jae* house to haf bbq....

-cHeR luvZ aJ-




left her thoughts ♥ 1:24:00 PM

hiaz.......life's so shittified..cannot stand livin it.....dunno wads wrong with mi...i hate it.........hat it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it...............I HATE IT!!!!!.......son of a bitch...........fuck it la......i hate the world..i hate life.......MY LIFE........suckz....SUCKS BIG TIME......URGgggggGGG........*tHrOwZ a BoTtLe AgAiNsT tHe wAlL*...........FUCK IT....



left her thoughts ♥ 7:48:00 PM

this is the song that will always remind mi of *baby*...n also....make me realise that if she were to ever leave mi n go...i'll be devastated..coz ...I LOVE HER...

tO babY:tHis sOnG iS fOr YoU....itS hErE..cOnstAnTly reMiNdIn mE oF uR pResEnCe nOW tHaT itS sO pRecIoUS tO mE & i rEalLy cAnT afford To lose U bAbY....i rEalLi do lOve u...PleAse rEmEmbEr tHiS sOng as oUr soNg.....wHen u lEaVe fOr jApAn...i'll haf tHe sOng iN my heAd,heArt & SoUl..i'll nOt fOget u babY..i'll mIsS YoU eVeRydAy.eVeRy hOuR,eVeRy mIn,EvErY sEc of mY lifE...i'Ll be thiNkiN oF u..MisSiN u & WiShIn thAt u wErE hEre besiDe mE hOldIn mY hanD & mE hOldIn u iN my ArMs.....
I LOVE YOU AJ!!!................


MY IMMORTAL


I'm so tired of being here
Supressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating mind
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me




-cHer lUvZ aJ verY mUcH thAt ShE cAnt stAnD a MoMeNt witHoUt hEr-





left her thoughts ♥ 11:01:00 AM

went east coast last nite with *baby*..*hong da n kaixin*....spent the whole nite with her....went home at 5am..so tired now..niwae...we saw a abandoned cute little kitten....damn damn damn CUTE................it played with mi n *baby*.....i realli adored it..so..mi n *baby* adopted it as our little darlin....we'll call it *MOMO*.......gonna bring the cat home..but..we had to leave it back to where it was left before.....i was soo heart broken n sad.................wanna care fer it...but....not worries..its VERY MUCH easier to let it go den to let my *baby* go now......if u were to ask mi to let her go....i cant..........i cant do it..i realli do..coz i realli love my *baby*...i realli realli do love her..............hope she feels the same way too...i realli hope she'll wld not blame mi fer no being there fer her when she needed sum1 to protect her.i WASNT THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...............HOW CLD I??????????????....i'm SOOOO ANGRYYY WITH MYSELF..UGGG...............BABY!!!!SORRY.................I LOVE YOU!!!!!!....................

-sAd cHeR lUvZ aJ-



left her thoughts ♥ 10:51:00 AM

kk...well.let mi update u...wait..muz first tell u..
last fri....went monks..saw *pUi n Win n ClaY*.......I MISS YOU!!!!.....so happy..got to see u guys....well..mi n *baby* went monks la....realli enjoyed my time with her...I LOVED THE LAST DANCE with her.....she hugged mi realll titely....almost died from suffocation..haha..no la.....felt happy n comforted.....wanna dance the las dance with her again......aniwae...
now.....2 nites ago....
*baby* went out.....kept sayin tt she'd call mi back when she reached home.....i waited n waited......been sayin she'll call mi back from like 10 plus..waited till 1am....but....she din call.....i cldnt even get her..called her house..her mum said she wasnt home yet...where cld she be??....i was sooooo frantic.....she off-ed her hp.....everyone said she was not with them.i almost died..wad cld happen to her???.....den she said...sum guys wacked her.......met her yest...she had lots of cuts from glass on her forehead...n her hands.....my heart damn pain...cried with i saw her cuts....
WHERE WAS I????...SITTIN AT HOME????....FUCK IT..WAD KIND OF GF AM I??..I CANT EVEN PROTECT HER N MAKE SURE SHE'S ALRITE....WADS WRONG WITH MI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...............FUCK IT CHERYL.............I SHOULD BE THERE!!!!!!...AND I FUCKIN WASNT...WAD A GOOD FUCKIN GF I AM.................I'M SO FUCKIN PISSED WITH MYSELF......WHY????..IF ANITHIN HAPPENS TO HER AGAIN...I'M NOT GONNA FORGIVE MYSELF.........FUCK ME!!!!!.......SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SORRY............BABY.....SORRY I WASNT THERE TO PROTECT U.....SORRY

-DaMnEd tO hElL-



left her thoughts ♥ 7:14:00 PM

well..things haf been fine..juz tt.....*baby* went missin tow nites ago...well....she got beaten up by sum basturds......aiya..damn..no time to elaborate..i gtg.....tell u wad happened....

-cHeR lUvZ aJ-



left her thoughts ♥ 2:03:00 PM

well.....in sch now...teacher din come...havin free peroids..aniwae...*baby* came over yest...hee...so glad to see her.....hope she's comin again today..cant wait to see her again..my..i miss her more n more each day...hee....BABY!!!!......I LOVE YOU!!!...SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.............=)...'how can i live without u,i want to noe.How do breathe without u.did u ever noe..how do i ever..ever survive???....how do i,how do i..oh how do i live...."...=).....wanna say it a thousand n million n zillion n trillion n err......lalalian times that I LOVE YOU!!!!..............heee...

-cHeR luvZ aJ-



left her thoughts ♥ 12:10:00 PM

heyya..hee..sorry la..hafnt been BLOGGIn fer a LOOONNNGGG TIIMMEE..i nv use the comp la...hee..too busy with sch..aniwae...yea..let mi update u guys with wads happenin...well...on VaLeNtInEs dAy...went MTV asia awards.....went home like bout 12 like tt..my...first time i've been home sooo late..with my parents allowin it..haha...coz i with my baby...aniwae....at the MTV..i cried.when GArreth GAteS sang "say it isnt so"....*baby* hugged mi from behind...was so touched..well...aniwae.....met up with *baby* also...den on fri..last fri..went town..met *melody*,*yang*,*benji*,*daphy*....*cheryl*.......of coz.was with my *baby*n *elaine* n *cass*..aniwae.....somethin funny happened..i fell down in cini...outside cheers....so many ppl saw man..sooooo paiseh.....haha...den...*daphy n baby* cldnt stand mi wearin trail slippers tt caused mi to slip n fall on my BUTT...they went to buy mi a $19 plus slippers...my..this is the first time i got a pair of slippers tt expensive...aniwae...took neo prints...

Friday 27 Feb
*baby* went to colect her results......she got 12 points...my..tts good..so happy fer her....My cuzzie got 11 points...oh no..i need to do beter...aniwae...met *baby* in town....met up with *denyse*,*dp*,*Travis*,*jo*,*calvin*..*LA*..aniwae...baby....she was so happy...den went fer ballet..at nite...went monks with *baby*..
so long nv go monks liao..haha....had fun...esp with *baby*

Sat 28 Feb
had sportsday...went sajc....was runnin fer class......*baby* wsent there to support mi....THANX BABY!!!!!!>.....*gIvES u A BIGGGGGGG HUGGGGGG*......*mUACKKKKZZZZ*..anwiae.....*baby* came over my house yest....yep..tts most of it la...haha.....i'll try to blog again kk???...take cares...
tataz all...

For BaBy :my dearest dahlin....thanx so much fer spend so much time with mi..thanx fer losin slp to support mi thou i din win..thanx fer bein there fer mi when i quarrelled with mi mun..thanx fer everythin u've done..i love u lots baby...*hugZ*

-cHeR luvZ aJ-



left her thoughts ♥ 10:10:00 PM

Human beings are complicated by nature and I wouldn't deny that.
You wouldn't believe my profession. But I have a strong passion for what I do.
I'm not a great dancer but dancing its one of my only burning passion in life that keeps me going. =)

A petite girl who loves to socialise and have tons of fun!
I'm patient but don't try to test the limits.
Well,as long as you are not a weirdo,you're most welcomed to join my social circle.
*cheerios!!